Even the sparrow has found a home, and the swallow a nest for herself, where she may have her young... a place near your altar, O Lord Almighty, my King and my God." Psalm 84:3

Monday, September 8, 2008

in common

The faithful little dog barks continually at the door, a frantic warning. Watery eyes search nervously through the window. Holding up her lunch, I smile big and remind her who we are.
After 98 years of use, her eyes and ears grow tired, unreliable. She hesitates, then lets us in. I can sense her anxiety and nervousness as I place food on the table and chatter loudly about her pet, the weather, coaxing her to eat lunch while its hot. It's been a week since we were here but it may as well be years, for the ability to recall events comes and goes. Today, it is gone, so she remains guarded. Caleb and the old chihuahua stay near the door, eyeing each other warily. On this warm Summer morning her thin arms are folded up tight, wrapped defensively in quilted flannel. Finally I put my hand on Caleb's head to say good-bye, when she suddenly lights up with pleasure.
"Is this your boy?!"
Yes! I respond, delighted to see her suddenly animated. "My youngest, of three."
Rasping voice responds with a contented sigh. "My youngest looked like him..." Her story comes out long and slow. I watch her mouth twist, and see how the long days alone steal this ability also, how the tongue wrestles anew; unaccustomed to speaking aloud.
I wait, and am rewarded with her mothers heart spilled out drop by drop into my hands, the gift of looking down into a mirror of feeling.
Three daughters and then, the gift of her son. So smart, such a treasure, this boy-her love for him, fierce. She stares at Caleb and the longing for her own little boy is palpable. Lips trembling, she fights for words to express her helplessness.
Her baby is so sick now, and what can she do? First the cancerous brain tumor-then the stroke. Now he cannot move, he cannot talk. She wonders if he can even hear her say she loves him? Suddenly she is in my arms and through my tears, I am reassuring her...of course, he hears you. Of course he knows of your love. Her white head buried deeply in my shoulder; she stops crying. Patting her back gently I hear the tired whisper...
"...he's only seventy-four."

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

My sweet friend,you have such a gift with the written word. Someday I pray the Lord provides you with the time to write YOUR book and I will be the first to purchase it. You are such and amazing example of being open to seeing others how the Lord sees them. You are a great encouragement to me.
Tink

Brian said...

I am struggling to find the right response here, so I will simply say that I am proud to be your brother. You really are an inspiration to me and everyone who shares your friendship.

Darcy @ m3b said...

OH man, loved this.

And my baby boy will still be my baby boy at 74, too. What a touching mother's heart story.

Anne said...

Okay, this is the second time I've read this entry and it still made me cry. I'll try again next week. = ) I am glad that you do what you do and are who you are. It's amazing to me how many people you share your life with and how special you make each person feel to be a part of it.

Anonymous said...

What a tear jerker, but such a sweet ending!

As much as I say I can't wait for our empty nest years I know I'm going to miss my girls, and that they'll always be my babies.

You're doing such an amazing thing for her.